Here’s the hard truth – You will never have true personal growth until you have a complete breakdown of your ego. Learn to set fire to the old you through calcination (the first of the 7 Operations of Spiritual Alchemy) and take a crucial step toward becoming who you’re meant to be.

“One can have no smaller or greater mastery than mastery of oneself” — Leonardo da Vinci

If you have a hard time looking at the person in the mirror, this post is for you.

Does any of this sound familiar?

“I’m ugly.”

“I suck at my job.”

“No one likes me.”

“This is the best that I will ever be able to do.”

“I’ll never be able to afford x, y, z.”

“True love doesn’t exist.”

“I’ll never master anything.”

If you’ve ever talked to yourself this way, know that it’s not your fault. You were not born thinking these things about yourself, and you do NOT have to believe any of these lies.

You were taught to think this way.

There are always ups and downs throughout your life that put your grit to the test. In alchemy, you apply consistent, steady pressure to a substance until its form changes. But placing too much pressure will cause the substance to crumble.

The fact that you’re here and reading this means that you have NOT crumbled yet!

What’s more, you can break free of these negative thought patterns to transform into something new, and shiny, and of the ultimate good.

Friend, it is possible to transmute your life into gold.

Before you can dive into the glorious end status, you’ve got to do the hard stuff. This involves a lot of introspection, burning down your ego to nothing but white ash, and opening a pathway for true healing to begin.

But first, let’s review further why certain negative events happen in your life.

Why you attract negative life events

There is no person on the planet who has lived an absolute blissful life, and there never will be.

The Wheel of Fortune is always turning in its divine timing—never slowing down, never going backwards, always turning and delivering karma to whomever dances on the wheel. Fortune doesn’t always come the way we want it, but it comes when we need it most.

Your mission on this earth is to become your best self for your highest good. To do so, you’ve got to brush away the false beliefs you may have picked up about yourself over your lifetime.

If you go through life feeling like you’re never heard, you’ll be faced with more challenges in life to speak up.

If you think you’ll never make enough money, you’ll be given opportunities to expand your knowledge, or grow a business

If you think you’ll never be loved, you’ll be pushed to show yourself more grace and love than you’ve ever experienced from another person.

By mastering the false beliefs you’ve developed over the years, you are slowly elevating yourself to your highest good!

Do get to this glorious transformation in your spiritual journey, you’ve got to take this first, crucial step: breakdown your ego.

Complete obliteration.

Burn away all that no longer serves you until it’s nothing but white ash.

Leave nothing behind so it can never follow you again.

To do so is the first of many steps to becoming a magician, scientist, and a true spiritual alchemist.

The first of 7 Operations in Alchemy, dive in to what calcination is, and why you need it to transform.

What is Calcination in Alchemy?

Calcination is the process of heating a substance (solid) to a high temperature for the purpose of removing volatile substances, oxidizing a portion of the mass, or rendering them friable. Calcination, therefore, is sometimes considered a process of purification. — Encyclopedia Britannica

You can see examples of calcination in nature, where a solid like lime is burned until it becomes limestone.

In spiritual alchemy, the process of calcination takes place internally, stripping away the residue of things like disappointment, failure, loss, anger, self-sabotaging behavior, and resentment from the ego.

Imagine you are a large piece of coal. Whenever someone touches you, their hands become covered in soot and they try to wipe away your residue or shake off your dust.

It doesn’t feel good to be so dirty, yet you are covered. Yet your entire being is covered in impure carbon particles resulting from the incomplete combustion of particles.

You can’t wash it away, it’ll just rest at your feet.

You can’t cover it up, it’ll get your clothes dirty.

The only way to be rid of it is to get rid of it for good.

Journal + Meditation Exercise: set your ego ablaze!

[PSA: Remember, alchemy is written in metaphors and allegory. You are not being directed to light yourself on fire!]

When you’re ready to breakdown your ego and do away with what no longer serves you, you need to develop a practice that will help you chip away at the false beliefs you have, and leave them behind for good.

Before you begin, make sure you are in a safe, quiet place where you can meditate and write. Play positive meditation music, if you’d like. Grab a favorite blanket and sit on the couch next to a window, or lay that blanket out underneath a beautiful tree.

Step 1. Write Down What Bothers You Today

For true transformation to occur, you’ve got to be SUPER honest with yourself. It’s easy and mindless to go through life just focusing on the things that make you happy and the things you like about yourself. To become the person you want to be, you need to be brave enough to bring light to your shadows.

In a bulleted list, write down the lies your ego tells you that make you feel like you are “less than.” Think of at least 5 negative things that you give your energy to. (Leave space after your answer.)

EXAMPLE:

1. I’ll never be successful.

2. I’ll never have a real friendship.

3. I’ll never learn how to be a computer programmer.

4. I’ll never save enough money.

5. Becky is SO rude to me at work and really wears on my confidence.

After you’re done writing down your examples, spend time meditating on each one. Allow yourself to feel whatever it is you need to feel. Cry. Get angry. Throw a pillow. Scream.

Your feelings toward these items are valid, but that doesn’t mean they have a hold on you forever.

Once you’ve given yourself time to feel each of these items, write down where these feelings come from.

How did they start? Is this a feeling that comes up for you a lot? What triggers you about this thought? Write them down next

EXAMPLE:

1. I’ll never be successful. I tried a new business and it failed.

2. I’ll never have a real friendship. I fight with the same friends over and over again.

3. I’ll never learn how to be a computer programmer. My job wants me to learn computer programming, but I’m not interested in it AT ALL.

4. I’ll never save enough money. I want to go to Europe, but I just can’t ever have enough money to go.

5. Becky is SO rude to me at work and really wears on my confidence. I told my coworkers about Becky farting one time, and now she’s making my life hell.

Now, give each of your answers a name. You know what drove you to feel this way. In one word, name that egotistic thought or behavior.

EXAMPLE:

1. I’ll never be successful. I tried a new business and it failed.

SELF-DOUBT

2. I’ll never have a real friendship. I fight with the same friends over and over again.

INSECURE

3. I’ll never learn how to be a computer programmer. My job wants me to learn computer programming, but I’m not interested in it AT ALL.

PUSHOVER

4. I’ll never save enough money. I want to go to Europe, but I just can’t ever make enough time to go. My job needs me.

PRIDE

5. Becky is SO rude to me at work and really wears on my confidence. I told my coworkers about Becky farting one time, and now she’s making my life hell.

ARROGANCE

Kind of tough to look at these feelings this way, isn’t it? These are the feelings you have inside of yourself that are driving your behaviors.

The kind of behaviors that could make a U-turn any second.

The kind of impulsive thought patterns that can fill you up instead of tear you down.

Now that you’ve identified these feelings and given them names, meditate with each one again.

Go ahead and feel whatever you need to feel again, only this time instead of being reactive, just listen.

What does this feeling want to tell you? What feeds into it? What does it need to let go of its grip on you for good?

Once you’ve sat with it long enough, begin to send an intense, heated light toward it. Consciously, and continuously, send this heat until the shadowy corner it resides in your ego beams white light and fades away into nothingness.

When you feel like you’ve worked these shadows enough, reward yourself with some yummy tea, cookies, and even a bath.

You just did a BUNCH of lightwork on yourself.

You’re amazing, you beautiful creature!

The calcination process will not happen overnight, and you may have to do this a few times before you feel the false beliefs leaving your being.

When you feel that your false beliefs have been reduced to nothing more than white ash, then you’ll be ready for the second operation of alchemy: dissolution.

I hope you found this post helpful. If you need more help sending light your way, just message me.

 

Blessings,

Lady Alchemy